I guess that when we were younger we had far less stressful things to worry about. The summer holidays were endless days of riding around on your bike, coming back home for lunch, spending the afternoon playing '40/40' or 'bulldog', returning for dinner, watching some TV and then bed- the only stressful thing to think about was which friend you were going to 'call on' first and whether or not you had enough pocket money left to pay for a Dip Dab and a bottle of panda pop at the Newsagents.
We all take on so much in our day to day lives in modern times that we almost feel guilty if we don't fill every waking hour with something productive. I struggle so much with trying to find that perfect balance between working full time, keeping my weight down and doing exercise, keeping the flat in good shape, eating healthy and fresh food every day, catching up with friends and family, writing this blog, maintaining a relationship, trying to complete a reading challenge (of which I am failing miserably at right now), going on trips & holidays, getting hair cuts, going to the dentist/ doctors, having a decent wardrobe, visiting the cinema all without falling into a state of neurosis at how much I suck at being a 'modern woman'- there simply doesn't seem to be enough hours in the day to do everything.
It genuinely scares me how fast time seems to pass me by in recent years and all the plans that I had for myself in my twenties are slowly seeming more and more unrealistic and the deadlines keep getting further and further away.
It's also often the feeling inadequacy that causes the majority of the anxiety that I feel about time seemingly moving too quick. If I haven't done a half marathon before breakfast, completed an 800 page novel in my lunch break, made a 100% organic kale and wheatgrass salad for dinner and cleansed, toned and moisturised before bed then I feel like a bit of a failure to be honest and it's all a bit exhausting. In reality my days feel like they are a combination of approximately 10% procrastinating, 30% catching up on yesterday's tasks, 10% breathing space and 50% rushing around like a BAF (blue arsed fly for those who didn't know).
Please tell me that I'm not the only one that feels like this!?! Surely others can feel slightly overwhelmed with trying to fit so much into a mere 24 hours?
Let me know in the comment box below if you have any life hacks or tips that you use to enable you to fit more into your day as I'd love to know.
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