"I never was a cool kid, no one ever really gave a damn 'bout what I did"

It’s only going to be a short entry today and it’s also a day late because I’ve been away from my computer for the weekend spending some time with Sam in Birmingham. Today’s entry is just going to be a collection of some of the random thoughts that I’ve been mulling over this weekend whilst I’ve been away.
A few months ago when I was having a slightly stressful time at work I came home to Sam’s smiling face informing me that she’d bought us two tickets to the Birmingham show of the McBusted tour. Now this is cute for two reasons a) she is a straight up hip- hop fan so I know that it is not her kind of music and b) I didn’t ask for the tickets, I didn’t even drop any subtle hints, she knew that I was a bit down and it was a wonderful surprise to pick me up.

I have been a fan of McFly in particular since the age of 15 so I was super excited and was hoping that the gig may bring back a few memories from 10 years ago when I saw them live for the first time supporting Busted. Well the gig didn’t disappoint at all, it was expectedly light hearted and fun and I sung my heart out to every single song that they played.

The crowd was a complete mash up of people; some were my age who were teenagers when the two bands first came out, there were young teeny boppers and there were also plenty of older couples and groups of friends who were there just to have a good time.

On the row in front of us there were 4 young girls, I’d say aged 14-15, who were what I would classify as stereotypically the ‘popular’ girls at school. These young girls were so concerned with checking their make-up and hair every five minutes, they sat on their phones for most of the gig and never danced or jumped or raised their hands even though I saw them mouthing all the words.

In the row in front of them were two girls around the same age who were having the time of their lives; they were jumping and pointing their ‘McBusted’ giant foam fingers to the sky, they were taking fun selfies before the show and they didn’t give a hoot who was watching.

Throughout the entire gig and all the support acts too the ‘mean girls’ as I classified them were laughing at these two girls, they started poking fun at their hair and clothes, they made derogatory comments about the fact that the two girls seemed to be a couple; I believe the words ‘ew and they’re lesbians too’ were said multiple times and it took all my strength not to pour my overpriced beer on their heads.

Then I got to thinking…

…out of these two groups of girls, who is having the most fun? Who will leave with fonder memories? Who got the most out of their ticket money? Is it actually the ‘mean girls’ that feel insecure and are trying their hardest to project that onto others?

As I’ve got older I have learned to care less and less about what people think of me and have started to place more confidence in the decisions that I make every day but when I was a teenager this was never the case. I was completely insecure and had little confidence in myself and my abilities, I would constantly compare myself to others and felt that everybody seemed to have it all worked out apart from me.I now understand that this is not correct at all and that everybody is just trying to understand this funny old world we live in. 

If I could have a conversation with my teenage self I would tell her to live her life just like the two girls on the front row because life is way too short to try and act cool at a McBusted gig!!  

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